You Stand

There you are,
Feeling so far,
Wanting to be there,
With everyone.

You hear them pass,
Moving with such a rush.
You wonder whether they see you,
Or see right through.

No matter how they surround you,
you never feel like you're in it.
you try to ignore it,
and your tongue you bit.

you see them laughing,
and you feel like you're only watching.
they don't seem to understand you,
but you try to make them see.

you look in the mirror,
and the person standing there,
isn't the person that you expected to be.
you promised never to flee from it.

you stand there looking through a window,
to a life that you live,
never knowing what to do.
trying hard to live through.

what have I done wrong?
or am I singing a different song?
its like drowning in the sea,
while they stare and flee.

you want it to stop,
just so you can talk,
and let them see
for once who you want to be.

Her Story

she knows she addicted to him
no matter how much she denies it.
in her heart she knows she's fallen for himbut
yet she denies it.

I don't want to get hurt she tells herself,
so she just lies
but what if he likes you back?
that little voice in the back of her mind says.

she wouldn't know unless she tries.
I can't, she says.
I would rather lie to him then lose him as my friend
her heart quietly aches for himas he talks to her.
she tries to keep away from him but its just too hard.

she knows he'll never fall for a girl like her,
with looks and a character just like any other.
nothing in her is special so why would he like her,
frens are all they'll ever be
and she tries to accept that.

she dreams that one day he'll get to be hers. only hers.
and she knows those are only dreams.
dreams that will never come through
but she clings to her glimpse of hope.

but there's a twist, he said he might be interested, if he wasn't so far.
what does that mean,she wonders.
does it mean he likes her too,
or just go out for a couple of dates and no feelings involved?

he said he would date her because
she tried to keep him entertained,
and some other reasons he didn't want to elaborate.

damn she says, please just give me hope.
she's just gotten over the fact that he won't be hers
and he now he says this.
what should she think, she's over-analysing his words over and over in her head,
the words are repeated.

oh why does he have to be so far?
if he was here, maybe he'd be hers,
but if he was here, maybe he'll still be with another.

and yet another twist,
he tells her, he's waiting for a girl.
oh please be me she says in her head.
but it'll never work, he says.
why not? she asks, still hoping that it could be her.

she keeps it cool and asks him who.
oh I've known this girl since I was a kid, he replies.
and in that moment, all she wanted was to stop thinking, and so she closed her eyes,
falling into slumberland, just to forget the hurt in her heart.

when she wakes, she's gasping for air. i
ts only a dream she says.
and then she remembers all that had happened before.

so that aching feeling she tried for so long to avoid,
has returned and gotten the better of her.
that's the end of the story, for a girl,who had given up and
built a wall around her heart for the last time.

but wait, his heart is also aching, she feels it.
he aches for the girl he cant have.
and that's when she knows, that being his friend is worth the most.
being there for him, makes it all the worth.

for eventhough she aches, she never wants to let him go.
because he's all that she has, that keeps her sane and happy.
she doesn't know why or how, but he has a calming effect.
and she doesn't mind,
that eventhough they can't be, she'll always have him.

and now she appreciates their friendship more than ever,
only wishing still that the feelings would go away.

Of The Low

You feel like your not worth it,
Thinking about it all as you sit.
You tell them what they wanna hear,
Just so you they believe you, you never shed a tear.

No matter how hard you try,
You cant seem to fly high.
So many people count on you,
For you to pull through.

People stand around you,
But you still stand alone.
Never wanting to break the rules,
You quietly accept the ridicules.

Life to you always seem so unfair,
Till one day you see it there.
That little gleam of hope,
That tells you, you still have a chance.

You wanna cling on to that,
So that some how you'll be able to survive,
This life that you feel's not worth living.
In a world where everyone's thriving but you.

Life's never simple as they say,
You think about all the things that happened today,
and wish you could erase it all,
and stand tall.

Life's never fair,
That you sometimes feel like there's no air,
But there's always something
To bring you away from there.