Her Story

she knows she addicted to him
no matter how much she denies it.
in her heart she knows she's fallen for himbut
yet she denies it.

I don't want to get hurt she tells herself,
so she just lies
but what if he likes you back?
that little voice in the back of her mind says.

she wouldn't know unless she tries.
I can't, she says.
I would rather lie to him then lose him as my friend
her heart quietly aches for himas he talks to her.
she tries to keep away from him but its just too hard.

she knows he'll never fall for a girl like her,
with looks and a character just like any other.
nothing in her is special so why would he like her,
frens are all they'll ever be
and she tries to accept that.

she dreams that one day he'll get to be hers. only hers.
and she knows those are only dreams.
dreams that will never come through
but she clings to her glimpse of hope.

but there's a twist, he said he might be interested, if he wasn't so far.
what does that mean,she wonders.
does it mean he likes her too,
or just go out for a couple of dates and no feelings involved?

he said he would date her because
she tried to keep him entertained,
and some other reasons he didn't want to elaborate.

damn she says, please just give me hope.
she's just gotten over the fact that he won't be hers
and he now he says this.
what should she think, she's over-analysing his words over and over in her head,
the words are repeated.

oh why does he have to be so far?
if he was here, maybe he'd be hers,
but if he was here, maybe he'll still be with another.

and yet another twist,
he tells her, he's waiting for a girl.
oh please be me she says in her head.
but it'll never work, he says.
why not? she asks, still hoping that it could be her.

she keeps it cool and asks him who.
oh I've known this girl since I was a kid, he replies.
and in that moment, all she wanted was to stop thinking, and so she closed her eyes,
falling into slumberland, just to forget the hurt in her heart.

when she wakes, she's gasping for air. i
ts only a dream she says.
and then she remembers all that had happened before.

so that aching feeling she tried for so long to avoid,
has returned and gotten the better of her.
that's the end of the story, for a girl,who had given up and
built a wall around her heart for the last time.

but wait, his heart is also aching, she feels it.
he aches for the girl he cant have.
and that's when she knows, that being his friend is worth the most.
being there for him, makes it all the worth.

for eventhough she aches, she never wants to let him go.
because he's all that she has, that keeps her sane and happy.
she doesn't know why or how, but he has a calming effect.
and she doesn't mind,
that eventhough they can't be, she'll always have him.

and now she appreciates their friendship more than ever,
only wishing still that the feelings would go away.